these two words,
have an enormous gigantic influence on my life.
since i was little,
i was always pressured by ppl’s expectations.
i have to be this, i have to get this, this, this and this.
at one point, i was tired of trying to impress ppl.
i let go, of everythg.
i wanted to run away from ppl’s expectations.
so i dropped everything i had,
and i ran my own course.
till this very day.
i made some shitty decisions,
and made some bad ones.
the thing is,
ppl talk. and i can’t stop ppl from talking.
recently,
we were blown away, in a pretty bad way,
by what a person wrote.
and wrote, and wrote.
i was definitely devastated of what i should be doing,
when all i know is one thing,
but the odds are against me.
what am i to do?
i want to fix things, i do.
but fixing, meant one thing, and only one thing.
will they be able to accept it, once i utter the words of my wishes to them?
will they be understanding enough to grant this wishes?
will they? i ought to try, don’t i?
though i doubt they ever will.
though i know, things are far from my grasp,
things are just impossible,
still, i should try,
and today, i ask, calmly,
will you, take a look at that,
in other words, i meant, will you, ever consider that as an option?
i pray to God your heart is wide open.
amin~
