For when He loves.

Maybe I’ve strayed away so far, for so long, that He pulls me right back..right where I should be..

When I saw those reports, I was in denial. Kept praying it was a one time thing. Kept praying that tomorrow it will all be gone.

I feel like crying, and im scared to my core..for this time isn’t like the last time..

He loves us, that’s why He’s testing us..

“And life in this Dunia is nothing but amusement and play.”

Once upon a time, I had a friend. And shes not just any friend, shes my soulmate.

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I had a dream. I met her. We finally, somehow, had closure.

I don’t think anyone wld understand how much it pains me. Ripped me apart, and im never the same again.

And that dream I had, I saw her, and she knew me. Though we spoke very different language, we understood each other beyond any words cld ever interpret.

It felt like I’ve spent the whole nite with her, and I woke up, feeling happy. Calm. And I smiled.

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May He reunite us once again. I love you :’).

and just like that :)

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6th April 2013,
will always be my magical, miracle, enchanted dream came true :’)

i am finally mrs izzattaufiq..some part of me still cant really believe all ths rahmat and nikmat Allah has bestowed upon us..Alhamdulillah..

we’ve been married 23 days now..and i cldnt be happier..

May our love and marriage be forever in His redha, and last till Jannah..i love you my husband :’)

Nephrotic Part 2

its been almost 3months since i was diagnosed with Nephrotic Syndrome.

and ive finished a 9week course of 55mg/day of prednisolone..

the effect of steroids is very prominent on me, i have a moon face now..

and also cushingoids features..

some friends dont even recognize me bcoz of my moon face…

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me before steroids

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also before steroids

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you can definitely see the diff….my face sooooo bulat

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one thick layer of buccal pad of fat, and what not..

just last week i had an appointment with my Nephrologist, and he decided to start tapering the dose..tapering will take another 8weeks course of reducing the amount of steroids i need to take daily..

he started off by prescribing me with 40mg/day for the 1st week..now im in the second week, and  the dose has been reduced to 30mg/day..and next week it will be 20mg/day..after which, i have another app with him, and if im doing okay, he will continue to taper the dose..

well anyways, i am definitely grateful to Allah that im already in the tapering phase..:D alhamdulillah…hopefully i’ll be fine, and there wont be any relapse in the future, ameen..

 

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just recently, which was few days back, i had food poisoning…had lunch outside rite after class..

since i was on steroids, ive fallen to the group ‘immunocompromised’..

meaning my immune system is a little bit weaker, compared to my normal healthy self..

so i can get infections easier than other ppl, cause the soldiers in my body are weakened…sobs..

i woke up the next morning, went to the toilet and had diarrhea…so many times that only water was coming out..i also vomited everythg i ate the nyte before which was home-cooked… the worst was the cramp, colicky pain i felt in my abdomen…it came every few seconds..the pain was unbearable..

i kept checking my pulse, was so afraid im going into shock..but my vitals were stable…

in the end,when the pain kept increasing, i called up my doctor, and he asked me to come to the hosp and get myself admitted..and so i did…at first the general medicine doctor put me under day care, which means ill stay in the hosp till evening, and get discharge…

but my nephrologist dr wanted me to stay the nyte, and i was shifted to a semi private ward..most of the times i was just asleep…they infused me with NS, ofloxin, pandotac, emeset..

later that nyte, i had another bout of loose motion..i had to be disconnected to the NS for one-two hours because i kept having to go to the toilet…the nurse called up the dr, and ordered to give me lactobacillus…which was very helpful..:)

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all my blood reports, and other investigations came out normal..and there was no serious infections…

so the next day, i felt much better, though there was still slight cramping in my abdomen..by evening, i gave my dr a call, and asked him if i cld be discharge…since ive already missed two days of classes!..and he said if i feel better, i can go, but he sort of prefers me going back the day after..but i got really bored staying in the hosp, and i dnt want to eat hosp food anymore…sooo i decided to just get discharge that day itself…

now im on antibiotics tablets for 4 days..but im well enough…Alhamdulillah..

p/s: cnt wait to finish taking all these meds! 🙂

the Nasi Kerabu project.

i was recently involve with raising money for emergency relief Gaza..

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and i feel that i shld share my experience, cause who knows maybe someone else cld do the same later on 🙂

my bestfriend was the head of it..and i just decided to help out, since it’s for a really good cause..i dnt think ive ever been involve with something as important as this..and im really happy to be apart of it..Alhamdulillah..

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the plan was to cook some food and sell them, and all the profits will go for to Gaza..somewhr along the way, they decided to sell nasi kerabu..

the head chef lists down the things that we needed to buy, and prepare for the next three days..

which started from last friday..

oh yeah, i forgot to mention that most, if not all; the students of ims sponsored money and bahan mentah for this project…:’) teharu kan….*cries*

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since friday, we’ve been busy preparing all the items..

we went to yesthwanpur market and bought all the vegies first…

that nite we goreng keropok and did the packaging as well…

on saturday, we went again to the market, and got 18 chickens and 15kgs of fish..

somehow, rezeki murah Allah nak tolong, bought the chicken for rs70/kg, and the fish, which was fresh, for rs 130/kg 😀

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later that nite, we started cooking at my friends house..

there were 10-15 of us girls…some cleaned the chickens, some prepared the chili baji, bakar ikan, the solok, the sambal tumis…the kelapa parut…well, there were so many things to do…and everyone was busy…

at 2 am in the morning, most of the things that we needed to do for the nyte was done..they were just steaming the solok..imagine 230 solok..hehe thats a lot, and everybody’s fingers was ‘pijar’…

after that, most of us went to sleep..and we woke up the next morning for subuh..

i went home and took a bath, and came back around 8am..and they’ve already continued with the remaining things…cooking the rice and frying the chickens..cutting the vegies…

by 9am ish…we start to put everything into place..i meant..erm..packaging?

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looks delicious rite? theres giant solok, chickens, kerabu..but still lots more to put in, the sayuran, sambal tumis, budu and all..hehe

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by 10am ish, we’ve started delivering..

and only completed delivery by 1pm-ish..got so many oders, but so little kakitgn…

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and by 2pm ish we’ve settled down, and had nasi kerabu for lunch..

it was superbly delicious, and worth it..

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and i feel so happy that ppl cld eat delicious food, and at the same time, do charity for Gaza..

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was one great experience for myself…cldnt be happier!

bile time cuti begini.

amat la laju nk update2 blog…ahad nie da balik india semula…

 

maka bermulalah perjalanan sebagai final year medical student.

AM I READY? pergh…

serius cuak x terkata…mampu ke nak jadi macam seniors yang hebat, jawapan semua di hujung mulut..

ktrg je jawapan di hujung jari terima kasih kepada smartphone 😛

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but insyAllah will try my very best..

mama ayah pon sentiase berpesan supaya blajo rajin2…